The recession has affected our lives in a good and bad way. In a way it was good that the world learned a valuable lesson about money. I remember the times when people used to spend money left, right and centre without looking at the bigger picture. Does anyone remember all those projects in Dubai? They must have wasted billions of dollars on worthless projects which only put them on the front page of newspapers but failed to do anything for them in the long term. Everyone simply got too greedy for the dough and that’s where they lost their souls. Bankers got too reckless and made a lot of risky bets which did not pay off in the end. It’s true when they say that money is the key to everything. People will do anything for money as they cant live without it. Icant pretend to have no love for money as I need it to survive. However I am not gonna do something illegal to make money as I have a conscience. There were times when I was tempted to do something not so kosher to make some money as I had nothing in my pocket. Fortunately Allah saved me from all that and helped me overcome that hard time.

I can’t believe I am unemployed once again. This is the third time in a year that I have lost my job.Actually the first  job I quit was mainly coz my boss was a major diva who drove me bonkers. It’s a good thing i knew that my current job was not safe as I kept dreaming about it everyday. The industry I was working for is going to a steady decline and there is no hope for it as the market has already gotten over saturated. I wanted to quit that job ages ago but for some reason my director wouldn’t let me quit and begged me to come back. It was quite a shock to my system when I received a phone call from my manager telling me not to report to work on Monday. It wasn’t so bad for me at first as I shrugged it off. However it wasn’t so great as the day progressed along mainly coz I was in denial about what happened. It sucks being unemployed coz you have to wait for someone to hire you and there are no pay checks coming your way. The only fear I have is that I might not find a job and I wont be able to save any money. I will have to dip into my savings again till I find a job and that means I won’t be able to visit Pakistan in january as i had originally planned.

I guess this means for some reason I am destined to find something new. I always knew that job was just keeping me afloat till I find something I love. My fear is that i might get too old before I actually find something I love. What if I am stuck with odd jobs for the rest of the life and I can never start my career as I hope to? Am I on the right path or should I try something new? What are my strengths and weaknesses? Will I ever get married or do I remain a bachelor for life? Am I a slacker or am I going through a spell of bad luck? Does this new development mean that something better will come along?

I pray that something positive happens in my life soon. At least I feel good that i am Independent and that I am responsible for everything. I have to bear the consequences no matter what happens. Failure and Success are a part of life and I am learning my lessons the hard way. InshAllah with hard work and determination I am sure I can make things happen. As Peter Gabriel and Kate Bush (no relation to George Bush) sang “Don’t give up” I definitely wont.